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my summer!

For seven weeks I had the time of my life. From God to Art to Best Friends. Eight weeks ago I began the best summer of my life I left for Gsa. Which in lamemens terms is Governors School for the Arts. It’s an amazing program, which I was thrilled to be a part of. I was there for photography; it was three straight weeks of intense Art training. I learned so much, about my camera and about myself. It was the first time that I was ever out of what I like to call my Christian bubble. I thought I would have a very hard time holding the name of Christ well.

My best friend Jaclyn smith could not have helped me more over these three weeks. We talked on the phone every night for about 2 hours, she would encouraged me to live for Christ and every time we Got off the phone we would both feel like we were on a spiritual high, and that kept me strong! I Stated proudly from Day one that I was a Christian, and that I did believe it and tried to live it well.

  I got to have many conversations with people who didn’t believe the same things as me, I just tried to show people that I loved them and that I respected their opinions. At the end of the three weeks I had made an abundance of friends they were all different and all people I enjoyed. The Last night one of the girls who I had been praying for and I sat in her room and shared a very large order of cheesy bread, and our life stories.

She told me about how she had been outcast because of the clothing she wore; you see she wore 50’s cloths, which I thought was incredible so we hit it off from day one. She told me of her pain, her joy, her reasoning for being agnostic and much more. I told her that I knew where she was coming from with the being outcaste, because I myself was outcaste for what I wore because I was the weird girl in the corner with no friends. Then I proceeded to tell her why I had my joy, that reason of cores is Jesus Christ, I told her I knew it might sound dumb or cliché but that was what I believed. She knew I respected her opinions, she told me she enjoyed me because I was the first Christian she had ever met that hadn’t tried to convert her. I had just tried to Love her.

The three weeks that I was there I realized the purpose for my life was not to live a mundane life, but to Love the way Jesus loved. I was forced to live for Christ better than ever before, because I knew people were watching me so I had better not mess up. It was a great accountability because when I mess up in my Christian bubble my friends know I’m saved and that it is all right, but I didn’t want to be a hypocrite at Gsa so it made me not be.

After Gsa I was home a day then left on a church trip to Tennessee. It was to a conference called Ciy, which means Christ in youth. The theme of it was called MOVE! We sang this song called WE MUST GO. That song really reached out to me because I had felt like I needed to Go into the world and Love the Lonely people to help the hurting and the Broken! Because in Ecclesiastes it says everything under the sun is meaningless so I really believe that if my life isn’t serving Christ then I have nothing to live for.

Two days after Ciy I left for the best 3 weeks of my life, I know that might sound hard to believe considering what I had just previously told you. I went on a mission trip to Northern Ireland. Where I met people who changed my life for the better, obviously im not the same person that I was eight weeks ago. But on that trip I learned what it meant to genuinely love people and be loved by people. I lived to stand by the broken which is my mission in life.

One day I got up late and I didn’t have time to do my devotion in the morning so I decided that I would fast during lunch, and walk up and down the streets of Newcastle where I prayed for the people I saw as I walked past them. It started to rain so I stopped in a store and bought an umbrella. As I walked with the Umbrella I realized that there were Old people who didn’t have any shelter so I gave my umbrella to one of them. It was the coolest thing I had ever done, the face on that lady was the brightest smile I had ever received! So I went and bought 7 more umbrellas and handed them out to people on the street who looked like they needed an umbrella. The Faces I received were worth a thousand words.

I was there as a Leader for the local churches version of vbs, which I got to share my story with 8 to 10 years old Irish Kids. Over the weeks I got very close with the Kids who I taught. They were all wonderful and their faces are burned into my memory! There’s nothing more precious than child like faith, I witnessed 5 of the kids I worked with come to Christ. It was so moving to see their hearts!

 We did lots of games with them and crafts, but one of the coolest things we did was a leader hunt in which half of the leaders went and hid threw out Newcastle I was a homeless person, I sat in a Box for 2 hours it was the most eye opining thing I have ever experienced. If you don’t know anything about Northern Ireland it is Always raining so I sat in a box in a bag in the rain with out shoes and it was very cold. Most people ignored me and the weirdest thing was the people who noticed me were the children. I would here them ask there parents why there was a person in a box, and one mom said don’t touch them and keep walking, it made me realize how lonely life must be for a homeless person.

 In the song we must go, there’s a line that says we must go live to feed the hungry, and stand beside the broken. And that truly is my mission in life. God as you can see changed my life this summer. I know I need to be in the art world because there are hardly any Christians there and that’s something Christ has gifted me with and wants me to use. I also learned what its like to feel unloved and lonely in a cold damp box, which makes me want to love the people who actually live like that. I know that God put me threw everything this summer for a purpose, and I think that purpose is to have a better realization on what life is all about. 

well as most of you know i just got home from northern ireland … i miss it very dearly!!! so well i have been gone all summer Goveners School for the Arts was incredable!!! i learnd so much like about How God Needs me in the Art world because there are virtually no christians and i can really be a light there!! :D im not really sure where i need to do this tho…. and what type of art i mean i love photography and all its jsut that im not sure thats what i need to be doing i would really love to be a fashion designer but its like i dont know how God wants me to do what he wants me to do!!! my heart is torn between Ireland and LA!  i feel like there is so much more work for me to do in northern ireland! and its just like thats where i want to be and im not sure if thats where God wants me beucasei know i need to Go feed the hungry stand beside the broken and love the lonley!!! and thats what i want to do its just hard knowing how to do it…. i sat in a box 4 two hours in norn iron pretending to be a homeless person, because we did this hunt the leader thing and so we all hid threw out newcastle and i was the homeless person it gave me a huge relisation for how they really feel, lonley cold and outcast … i could here poeple talking about me and it was just really strange liek one mom said to their kids dont touch her. so ya i want to do something for people like that because its very lonley!!! and the one day i got up late and didnt have time to do my devos and so i decided to fast threw lunch and walk up and down the streets of newcastle praying for people and well it started raining and and so i bought an umbrella and then i gave it to an old lady and the look on her face was worht athosand words so i decided to bye alot of umbrellas and hand them out to people and i did and ti was reallly really cool!!!! :D um there are many more things to tell you but that will be at a later time for now love you guys 

Jillian 

bubbles

so the past 2 days i have been hanging out with one of my frineds named jaclyn and yesterday we bought a bubble machine .;…. its pretty increadable …  and i just spent about an hour watching bubbles…. they are beautiful! i think that bubbles are the most magical thing that God ever let us discover! they make me think about unicorns and hipogriphs …. i really want a puppy …. so today and yesterday me and jaclyn spent our day going around lexington to find puppies to play with so we went to like 5 pet stores and when we finnaly found one with puppies they said we couldnt play with the puppies! i was really mad! becase im in need of some puppies …. i am getting scared as my buisy summer aproches im not sure of myself in my photography! and i ? things like why did i get into Gsa and if i am really ment to be there …. gash …. i really dont want to go .. i want to sit at home and be lazy jillian!!!! ugh well i will talk later

love ;)

so the new death cab album came out!! its a beast i suggest that everyone go bye it now!! i love it! and now i decided that i am not going to get on face book any longer becuase its just dumb because its not true friendship so if  you want to be my riend call me!!! because i think that facebook is fake friendship!  well i dont have much more to say today bye 

observations

so ive decided that i dont want to grow old … i dont think it would be very fun … i went to lunch today with my mom and her mom and her mom … so 4 generations so my great grandmother is 99 and has this great mind … shes a card shark and is just very with it in her mind  but her body is jsut gone …. she can hardly walk and is all hunched over i think its very sad that people become decreped. i bet she feels traped becuase she cant do any thing for hers self …. i never want the day to come when i have to have someone help me go to the bathroom … i think its sad that she knows whats going on but can hardly see and can hardly hear. 

so i think that my gran might be crazy ,….. well not really but its really funny to listen to some of the things she says like she was trying to help her mom order and was reading the whole menu to her and said she could get a vegtable plate and then like tould her that she could get maccaroni as the meet … it made me laugh! also we were talking about my great grandmother posibly changing tables everynight at dinner in her nurseing home and my gran said ya she wants to be a swinnger ,… i about pd my self!!!!! ;D  

those are my thoughts for today 

go read philipians 4!!